Voodoo Queen

She Danced like an african queen
into the night
Twisting back and forward
Moves of a goddess
Unseen magic
Her soul
The drums
Beautifully united
He was wrapped in
Thousand spells
Burning fire
inside of him
Yearning for her
for a kiss , for a touch
The picture went wild
Faster drums
Faster moves
High up , High up
As he gazed at her
Swallowed by the open fire
Nothing left but ashes
Aching inside his soul
Reviving it
Ropes enslaving him
to a passion
a ghost
Was never real to begin with!!!

Theater of broken souls

I am trapped inside of this play
A scenario , and a plot
Unseen audience
Some are satisfied
some are not
Walking down the stairs of life
With every step
A new character is born
It feels like forever
So tired
A broken winged bird
Struggling to fly
Careless world
My lights are not turned off
It's not over
A shriek of a laughter
A whine of another
My curtains have not fallen yet
My performance is yet to begin
With broken wings
Trying my last dance....

Broken Mirror

Let my face not fool you
It's a mask
from my old bag of tricks
The true me
is not caught by you
You may see my grin
but it's not me
Fooling you
not to see my sin
A surface
A lie
Deep inside
I am a broken mirror
Fragments
shattered portraits
It's when the words fail
Only silence can suffice...

Black Swan

As I took a step into your life
I knew a new chapter was written
In my head
I pictured a true romance
I made a frame
I thought of music
and a lovely dance
I had my favourite white dress
and the sun beams danced on my eyes
So bright
It blinded me
I never saw
It was a trap
Once I was there
The darkness fell on me
So late , So late
to realise
You were never real
You were nothing but pain
I tried to escape
I couldn't break the chain
My light within
Is slowly dying
I feel bare
You killed the beauty in me
A black swan was born
As I am leaving your life
I am leaving a white swan
leaving a part of me
There ....

Gypsy....

Somewhere along the road
My heart is buried
I wear some clothes
but they are not mine
The boots , and the hay crown
on my dry long hair
I told you at the very start
I am a gypsy
The road is my best friend
Nowhere is my sweet home
I told you
I am wild
Not easy to tame
As I left you asleep
and the moon played on your closed eyes
Hypnotised
In your dreams
Holding my hands
as I am walking alone again
A sad smile crosses my lips
Seeing your face
when you are awake
Holding nothing but a blanket
With a scent of mine
and a straw of my hay crown
That I once was there
With you.

Uninvited

Hours turned into days
days turned into months
As I am walking
The snow is falling
I know that
Years has passed me by
since the last time I saw your face
Your eyes ,
Your lips
And heard your voice
You still linger in me
Reside within
Has been the years nice to you?
Have you found the love?
Like a river flows
I think of you
A memory
All what is left with me
I am now nothing but a stranger
Uninvited
to step into your dreams
once again
I will just keep walking
on the snow
my footsteps
will be covered soon enough
Like it was never there
Just like me
when I left your world...
A very long t ime ago...

My beautiful friend

My summer is done
My leaves are falling
A long way to catch
a beautiful spring
Deserted hearts
Cold nights
Another day without you
My friend
I try to cover up the hurt
The pain
Swallow my bitter tears
I just have to go on
with my life
and accept the fate
that you are no longer a part
The ache fills my heart
Without you
My friend
You brought a smile to my lips
but all I feel is pain
hits me again ...

Your pieces are falling ....

I once knew you ,
Innocent and pure
True
few steps to heaven

where did the real you go ?

I am puzzled, Confused

Dazed

I know you

No more.

I look at you

but those eyes are not yours,

the smile

and the scorn

A touch

So cold..

A twisted charm

A fading sunset

Embracing the darkness

Yet , I am to convince myself

It's not you.

but something has take a toll on you

....................

My Illusionist

Not long ago ,

I held your hands ,

I felt the warmth within

Magic

A fantasy

then there was none

yet you were real enough

to love you

to dwell in your illusions

I slowly open my eyes

To stare at my bad luck

unfortunate

Pain is a dull knife

desperately

stabbing me

to bleed me

I close my eyes

Once again

to welcome myself

to your  world

away from my reality

Inside your illusion ....

A Child Again ...

Innocence within
Soft eyes
Bright dreams
Clear smile ,
Singing laugh
a river flow
Pure heart
a fresh start
A child again ,
a dream
to be a child again
Riding my fantasy
Laughing everything to happiness

Everything is possible

beyond my head
Love is everything
a crown on my head
is my middle name
A child again ...

The Confessor

Your lips are burning
for a kiss
your skin is glowing
A touch
You desire me
yet you're scared
you want
what you can never have
I am a confessor
Not your lost lover
I am the forbidden  fruit

I have daggers
You travelled for days
for months , and years
to get to me
Your eyes are shinning
Emotions locked
inside
On the hill

from my temple
I look down at you
move closer
I am real
move closer
I am your confessor
be mine
be under my spell
be my lover
forevermore...

Mother ...

My mother is a poem , I'll never be able to write, though everything I write is a poem to my mother.

A love ,
Pure , and strong
Stronger than hurricanes
Softer than a summer rain
Different
The depth
The width
Unique
A love
that takes me high
and softly embraces me down
into an ocean
I am not scared to drown
Your hands are around me
Taking me to a safe shore
Mother , My mother
You're so weak , yet so strong
Your love
make changes
within me
within many more
I love you ...

Pulling Your Strings

Stare into my eyes
I shall ensalve you
Mindbender

Strings , Strings

My puppet

I start the show

You're mine
Try to reach to me
Touch nothing
yet you can feel me
I am inside your head
Can't you hear me
Scream louder
I am sure your can't
Twisted thoughts
in a twisted mind
Don't try to escape
Noway out ,
Don't play with fire
it may burn you
yet from your ashes
I shall build wonders

SheWolf

A lonesome she-wolf
Nowhere is my home
on the run
always
and forever
I didnt break someone's heart
I am not in love
It was just a thought
I can only love me
My heart is a ship
a place for one
two can never go
Try no more
I am not looking your way
I will move forward
where the light comes from
I howl to the sea
in the middle of every night
With open eyes
I stare at the moon
I am never home.
Nothing is mine

Nothing is truly mine...

Wild , Wild Spirit

I no longer endure
A tank ,
I yearn for the vast ocean
Unleashed waves
Wind on my face
Free
I no longer can stand
the ground
I want to fly
Glide high , high

to the seventh sky
A hope
Shall never dies within me
The busy streets
The city lights
Noise
I am never a part
I never was
Green Green
singing butterflies
Never seen

somehow

I've been there ....

As I am fading away...

As I am fading away
I call your name
I know your eyes
tender
I know your heart
your pain
As I am fading away
I look through me
through everything
I break the memories
I tear the pictures

Tell me

how does it feel

to feel like this

tearing away

In the end
I erase myself
quietly
behind my closed doors
Nothing left
a gap
a hole
where my heart used to be..
As I am fading away...

PhoeniX

Tick Tack , Tick Tack
I give , You take
It's my life you shake
With all your lies
Promises
you fake
I twist away
as I give you a nod
you broke me
You had no mercy
I was left for dead
I won't give up
From ashes I shall rise
like the phoenix
Tick Tack , Tick Tack

The clock is ticking
I am coming for you
Watch every step you may take
Tick Tack
Tick tack ...
It's your life I shall shake
Tick Tack , Tick Tack

A getaway!!!

I run
Nowhere
I run as the moon
covers the land
Silver shinning blanket
Wolves's home
Into my ears
The song of thousand broken souls
Crying trees
Into ashes
I run
sound from the ground
beneath me
I wont stop
My heartbeats
Like a drum
Into the the night
Long , scary shadows
Dark woods
calling me
to nowhere
as tears streaming down my face
I left you there
without a word
without a touch
I know , Its cold
inside
but I won't stop
I will keep running
Running away
from everything
I have ever encountered!

Running , Running in circles....

This is it
Stepping out
Im leaving the old me
behind
A cold empty shell
The sun stabs my face
like sharp daggers
Freedom
I drop all my guns
I now
Defendless
I walk , I walk
I find me a door
A barren desert
I search for a sign
a light
to find my way
to a new me
but I only hear sad songs
somewhere out there
Burst of fine firely music
I used to hear
I close my eyes
half-expecting
but then there was nothing
Moving slowly to the closed door
I push
I step inside
I find myself back
at the very start!
The very beginning
at where I was before
The old me ,
An empty shell...
Ironic
I was but running in circles
I have always been
running
and running
in circles....

Don't be shallow , Be a deep water , A river that flow !!!

For so long!

I waited , I waited
for so long
I waited for you
to take my hand
and ask me to dance
to give us a chance
A dream
for so long
I waited for you to knock on my door
On your knees
without words
Asking
to be mine forevermore.
for so long
I waited for you to be my reality
and to protect my dreams
but now I know the truth
Do not breathe on my forehead
I don't want me to fall more
I will mend my broken heart
Once again
I will rebuild my crumblig walls
It's time for me to go
I am stumbling for the door
There's no turning back
It's time for me to go
for so long ,
I waited....

Remember me , Remember you !

I Remember you with love,
smiles and butterflies
No tears
I remember you under blue clear skies
under the shinning stars
A vast void , I dont know how to fill
It hurts
but wont take me over
A goodbye
but your love will always stay
as a gentle snow falling upon my tears
as a little first beam of a sunlight
Traces of you
linger here
your print in my heart
and my viens
wherever I may go
You are always by my side
a love like yours
It's hard to find!!

Quotes - Kahlil Gibran ( Sand and Foam )

* I am the flame
   and I am the dry bush,
   and one part of me consumes the other part.

** I have learned silence from the talkative, toleration from the intolerant, and kindness from the unkind , yet strange, I am ungrateful to these teachers.

*** I prefer to be a dreamer among the humblest, with visions to be realized, than lord among those without dreams and desires.

**** Only once have I been made mute. It was when a man asked me, "Who are you?"
**** Remembrance is a form of meeting.
        Forgetfulness is a form of freedom.

***** How can I lose faith in the justice of life, when the dreams of those who sleep upon feathers are not more beautiful than the dreams of those who sleep upon the earth?

****** Strange, The desire for certain pleasures is a part of my pain.

Purple Dreams

Young , Young hearts
loving , soft
full of life
a spring
the winter is so far behind
beautiful , green green grass
singing lips
shinning eyes
young , young hearts
the dreams are white
never leave my sight
the dreams are blue
the dreams are you
delicate touch
a tender first kiss
Its a purple dream
I am moving , flowing
A stream
You are my purple , Purple dream
My only dream!

Empty Chamber

Staring at the empty walls
A hole
a picture used to hang there
of you and me
Its not fair
Everything
Anything
Reminds me of yesterday
A lonely day
without you here
Grief is  a song
Of broken hearts's list
Share of pain
a sadness to swim through
Trying to reach for the surface
I can never find my way
back to you....

Left Alone

Same time ,
Same place ,
A coffee place
Face to face
with an empty chair
A dream
a past
broken wishes
As I walk this empty street
I feel alright
but not complete
without you
without our old joy
It's done
I knew , I could never undo it
since that day
you walked away
from me
from my world
and you headed for the exit.

Bubbles

The happiness is smiling
Before my eyes
I watch you shine
as I embrace your halo
The world float away
from us
We are living in a bubble
Beautiful dreams
the world unseen
too good to be true
with you
a tale , untold !
You are in the air
Inhale , exhale
I breathe you
I have you in the inside
deep inside
I never wanna breathe you out
In my heart
You shall live forever!!

The Mirror

Oceans are between us
but the sun that shine upon you
is the sun same that shine upon me
The moon and the blue clear sky
Equilibrium
Walking in the air
floating away
a clear laugh
a soft touch
lips on mine
I desire the whole thing
a piece won't satisfy me
so real , so good
I am fine !
Sigh
I stare at the mirror
I see your soft features
not mine
warm
I kiss the cold glass
Realise
I am kissing but the mirror before me
a fool
we are the world apart
yet so close , so near
I smile.

Angel without wings

With a wish
she wanted to fly
with broken wings
she knew , she would fall down
on the harsh ground
but she gave it a try
for his dear sake
Everything
is turning black
she no longer could see
bitter tears
she's been shedding
stains
her ivory skin
Picking up her fallen pieces
comforting her wounded pride
It may heal
but  the scars
remind her
It was all real....

All I see is you!!

Love is internal ,
I am locked within you .
A soul once was lost
now its found ,
No more tears .
Wreathed in smiles
I hear thousand of voices .
But none of them is yours
An existence outside of time
Eternality
I am never alone
Memories hold us stronger.  
As I lay on your door step
My dark hours are slowly fading away!

Lost Melody

Mistakes
All over again
Things you shouldnt have done
Scared ,
Drained, Disconnected
Sleepless night
Heavy , heavy head
Something is lost inside
You cant replace
None will ever fix you
The end is so near
The Candle is burning at both ends.
Everything you loved
Wasted
Crawling inside your mind
Face to face
with loneliness
Down below
Darkness
Ignite your soul
LET IT GLOW!!!

M.a.s.k

I wonder whether we don't all wear a mask at times.
A mask of happiness ,
a mask of grief ,
a mask of indifference...
A mask saying : Now you don't see me...

I barely know you!

You hold me to you
Without a touch
The distance
Miles between us
so far yet so near
Every morning
At the sunrise
I greet the sun
The moon and the stars
The sea and the sandy shores
for your sake my love
All I know is your voice
Makes the wind chimes sing
Every night
I try ,
Harder
to memorize your face
for a kiss
Hypnotized.

Final Embrace

This is our last sunset
It was beautiful yet unreal
The dawn's first sunray
An end
If this is an end
Was there a beginning?
A tear
Paused on my cheek
Trembling
trying to speak
I'm fine
but deep down I am lonely
Dreams can change,
Visions fall
My loving heart is lost
Frozen
a frost
A withered flower
forgotten
Six feet under
Burried
Dusted
Gravestone
Merely for a grasp
into the night
A lullaby
soothing my dry dreams
A final embrace.

Two roles , one character!

A world is falling on us
What if ,
Lies turn into truth
Instead of saving
we kill and hurt
The silence plays the drums
Dum dam dum dam dum
inside our head , we re locked
There is no space , no land
Happy inside our falling sandcasltes
The pretending take us in
It captures us ,
Frame us
It leads us
We hate each other
yet we say grace
our world is breaking down
No where to hide
Let's see beyond this
and try to peel our masks

Talk love
Stop all your pathetic excuses!!

Stand up , FIGHT!

Another smile
Veiled your face
Another pain
You hide
A dry tear
on your fingertip
See , See
Inside your head
Fight
Black waters
Dive deep
Make them clean
There is none but yourself
break the illusion
Take a breath
Feel free
Break your chains
Fly away
to the other side
Walk the edge
Meet something new
over the rainbow bridge!!!

 

PS. I love You

Sleep my love
My restless baby
I am watching over you
All through the night
When the gloomy world is silent
A ticking clock
I am your guardian
none will harm you
Rest my beloved
on my bed of love
when the moon is only our witness
I place a kiss on your tender lips
Breathing
In peace
Pure , Holy feeling
Secure
My loving vigil is keeping you safe
from all the evil
put your weary head
next to mine
and smile
for now , you are with me
There is nothing to fear!

??? A Perfect Romance ???

 

Look what I ve desired
and I ve got
Was never my design
A disaster becomes me
How I pictured it
was never my vision
A perfect romance
With you right by my side
The music had to stop
I was left alone to dance
The record is broken
Your dying heart
wasn't meant for me
It's so cruel
Can't understand
Injustice
I am condemned to live
Without you
A memory
A glimpse of what we had
Was never there!!!

Stay!

I beg you , Please
on my knees
Down on the floor
Dont throw away my dreams
Dont tread on my world
constantly searching
nothing is found
do not turn away
do not push me away
hold me !
Cold , Numb to everything
I am fallen
Losing my faith
IN YOU
I am begging you...!
You are not listening
Deaf ,
The silence echoes
I turn on myself
None will ever see these tears
Slowly
Falling to the floor
....

A bliss

My eyes are closed
A smile ,
So haunting
Your eyes
So dark
Sparkling
like the stars that smiling back at us
It's another world
I dont want to wake up
I dont want you to fade away!
I feel safe ,
My eyes well shut
I want to live in your grace
My hands in your hands
Warm
I want to this moment to last
move slow
timeless
to the ocean of love
we are falling
My whole belongs to you
I dont want to compare you
to any other human being
I feel safe
Closed eyes
.....

Idle Tears

Tears , Tears
from the depth
frustration
an echo of my cries
unseen
There's nothing
an empty shell
Deep breath
Cradling me
The wind passes through me
Untouchable
I am flying
yet grounded
Heavy shoulders
Take your weight off of me
I scream
Silently
never been heard
Wake me up
The flames are rising
will it take over ?
For once
hear me
wake me !

Beautiful Strangers

I feel so fine
You came my way
are you an angel  in disguise?
Questions
A maze.
a king without a throne
a queen without a crown
beautiful eyes
divine
touch me, restore my soul
the words are failing us
exquisite
only feelings can suffice
Things are moving slowly
still
The heavy rain
falling gently like snowflakes
on our naked skin
softly
kissing
I look into your eyes
I can dive in your soul
I see me there
residing
it chases away my sanity
am I dreaming ?
there is only you and I
and forever we shall stay!

Anguish

An empty room
All alone ,
Pondering...
I am bleeding confession
I can never speak
The walls are closing in on me again.
Dont speak , Never reveal
High black waves , washes over me
It's pulling me
Holding me down
to nothing
The leaves of my life are dried
shaking
dead and broken
big part of my me has died
You ruthlessly cut me off
Drain my well
Drain my half empty glass
not satisfied
Suffocate my dreams
sad in the corner
Smash my soul
and all the promises you've ever made
were but a lie!
Do not blame me
when my hell is unleashed
It will burn you all
Do not blame me!

Mute

A taste of my sleepless night ,
Manifest my sad soul,
My world is an empty hole
It can only be filled with tears and sorrow
I no longer looking for tomorrow
Everything becomes a sinking boat
but somehow
these black ropes enslaved me to continue
with a broken heart that I cant repair
I just wish I was as invisible as you made me feel
I was seeking solace in your eyes
I never knew it would be hell
Every night , I stand there
Watching you disappear
but you , You were never there
I was the only who really tired to love you
I always waited for your wind to die down
Cold cold water surrounds me now,
Will I get your saving hand..?

If loving you is wrong , I really do not wanna be right !!!

The day you sailed alone!

You left ,
without a word ,
You left on your lonely ship
sailing the wide waters toward to the unknown
No wind is gonna find your topsail
No thunder and no storm
You ll be safe , You wont fail
till you reach to that shore
Start the new you forevermore
When you walk there
all by yourself
when the rain pours down on you
when the moonlight dances on your eyes
Then you are fine
You are free
No one can hurt you anymore.

Am I A Goddess ?

I try to stitch my words together ,
but all I get is Gibberish , 
There is unspoken truth ,
So much to say
unable to speak a word
everything is fighting inside my head
If I understand myself enough
long enough
am I not a goddess?
I wander yet not lost
my heart is old yet doesnt wither
Am I lying ?
Kill me , I shall devour you
My feet dont touch the ground
I am floating in the air
like a flying baloon
I think You re a goddess
Just if you understand yourself
long enough!

My world revolves around you

Loving you
is like running on ice
my feet are numb
but my heart is longing for you

Looking into your eyes
is like standing ...on the edge of an abyss...
falling down ..
breathless...
in the deep...
without having fear to fly ...

Your skin against mine
Its like descending
Diving in deep water
without fear to drown

Feeling your hot breath on the back of my neck
is like soaring up high
reaching for the very sky
without real wings

Making love to you
is like magic that wraps us in
The world stands still
There is only you and I
Everything else is but a faint image of reality

When the love fades away ...

As I lay here,
I Slowly open my eyes
to look at your fading smile
Now Im telling you,
you've been removed from everything that belong to me,
dont try to ask,
because there will be no answers.
Iam dead to you
dont try to reach for me,
because its too late now,
too late to relight the flame when its cold.
and to hell with your helping hand...!

        

I will be damned
if Im going to cry over losing a knight
in shining armor
who wasnt even real to begin with.
I will not even discuss what happened with you
or any one else on gods green earth!
I'll just let it go...
It's over ,
Dead and dusted
I'm going to start it all from here ...
without a single tear...
I wont beg you .. please!